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November 09 考试结束最近好久都没有更新，因为突然觉得有些倦了，累了，烦了。
这学期发生了很多事，学习的，生活的，应有竞有。其实没有什么可抱怨的，that's life!
这个学期是在许多projects中度过的，和班上大部分的人都合作过了，感觉很好，见到了不同的思考方式和生活方式，自己也同时长大了。
今天中午12点20分，这个学期的期末考正式结束。其实考试的时间并不长，只是从8：40一直考下来而已，考完后，松了一口气，不管结果如何，我尽力了。 突然发现，虽然名义上课程还要上到下周，但事实是，这个学期已经结束了。
经历了这么多的，现在印象最深的是最后结束的oral project---debate.
几个组员的话语现在还记得：
“大家明天都加油呀”这是monitor在临辩论的千一晚讨论结束后说的话
“没有关系，只要把头抬起来，把头开好，你就不会紧张”这是John在辩论那天早晨在校车上对我说的话
“准备这么久了，终于要来了”这是Maggie在辩论的教室外对我说的话
“没关系的，一会儿就过去了”这是Millet在辩论教室里对我说的话
“待会儿我们一起努力”这是Grace在辩前对我说的话
每一个组都是这么过来的，大家相互鼓励，相互支持
能够在这样的地方，结识这样的一群朋友，
我 很 幸福
October 03 National DayOctober, 1st, the National Day of my dear home country.
This is the first National Day I ever spent abroad.
At night, almost all the SM2 scholars were downstairs at the canteen and attended the activity held. There were some games and performances. It was a happy time spending with all the other classmates. We all come from China; we shared the same culture; we had the same feelings.
However, the most unforgettable thing is not all these. It is the time when i heard the National Song of our country. At that night, I went upstairs to my bedroom earlier. When I heard the sound of the National Song of China. I ran out of my room, standing straight and singing the song together with my dear roommate.
We sang the song for 3 times. For the last time, both of us cried. There was a sense of belonging. A lot of emotions aroused by the familiar tune. Yes, Singapore is still unfamiliar to me even though I think now I already adapt to it. But, I don't belong here.
This is not my home. September 11 Things to record这几天发生了很多事，感触颇多，但发现真正想要写下来时，却有很多顾虑，只能简略记下一些，其他的，就让他们随风飞去，忘了吧…… September, 7th: 参加了最后的give closing concert，有了很多的人生第一次: 第一次在新加坡参加concert，而且自己还是表演者之一； 第一次穿晚礼服，觉得自己原来也可以很漂亮； 第一次化妆，觉得很累，而且很麻烦，但看到自己在镜子里的脸，感觉很棒！ …… 本来昨天发生了一些事，让自己的自尊心和自信心受到了不小的打击，不过Let bygones be bygones. 当我提着裙边，踮着脚尖走上台时，有过的伤心和难过已经抛到脑后； 当舞台上灯光逐渐闪亮，聚光灯最终打在我身上时，所有的委屈也消失了； 在别人看来，所有的是在为官员和校长表演，但只有当我的指尖真正触碰到琴键时，我才明白，我们，在为自己表演……
September, 8th--10th:参加camp，又有了人生很多第一次： 第一次睡上铺，和很多人住在一起； 第一次跳那个的游戏； 第一次躺在泥浆中也不介意; …… 一切结束后，突然发现，其实我真正学到了一些，其实我真正长大了 August 31 幸福的八月我的生日，所以不用英语 今年的八月对我来说是幸福的。 开始，有迷茫过，因为发生了很多事，所以一时无法接受，不过后来，平心静气地对待，顺其自然。 开始，有害怕过，突然发现再有一年自己年龄的十位数字会变为2，不过后来，告诉自己，总有一天我会长大。 虽然有生气的时候，有难过的时候，但更多的是快乐，幸福的时候。短短的一个月，却发生了很多。 感到自己的周围，充满了爱。 8月28日 谢谢好朋友们提前祝我生日快乐，谢谢John在我18岁的最后一天晚上和我一起讨论我们的project，非常愉快的合作。.谢谢Michelle在离我生日来临还有40分钟时，送给了我一份完美的生日礼物，让我狠狠得感动了一把。 8月29日 今天是我第一次在没有父母陪伴的环境中度过自己的生日,感觉还好。 凌晨0点，菜花儿进屋里来，对我说：“生日快乐！”而且还给我唱歌，一会儿，另外两个室友也一并进来为我过生日。这是我出生以来最特别的一次，在生日的凌晨，手里拿着礼物，捧着写有FEI的气球，和室友们聊天的那种感觉，这种我无法用文字形容的感觉，4个离开家乡的女孩，4个为了追梦的女孩，在寂静的夜里，谈笑打闹...... 早上起床，穿上一件自认为可以表现自己已经长大的裙子，蹬上最爱的那双湖蓝色的高跟鞋，对自己说：“我长大了！我……19了” 在楼下canteen，遇见Jill.夸我的裙子好看，遇见Rose，祝我生日快乐。 从NIE电梯出来，听Bear 和Millet说“生日快乐”；收到monitor的短信，祝我生日快乐；收到和我同年同月同日生的另一个四川男生的短信，祝我生日快乐。那时，觉得自己好幸福。 接着，在上课之前，全班同学一起为我唱生日歌，那一刻，觉得自己好幸福。 下午，收到了一个项链或者说是链子作为礼物（尽管和我平素的风格不搭），不过，谢谢，很kuwaii，仍然是幸福。 晚上回宿舍，和室友们吹蜡烛，吃蛋糕，幸福。 疯完后，回到自己的房间，桌上摆着一个信封，拆开来，是Fun的祝福；打开电脑，准备记录下我的幸福，却发现了一张可爱的图画，那是来自Becky的礼物。幸福，幸福，幸福…… 悄悄地在心底许愿，神呀，让幸福再延长一点，再长一点……
今天是我第19年生命的第一天，重要的一天，难忘的一天，幸福的一天
8月30日 今天去MOE give closing ceremony rehearsal，带着琴，穿的很淑女。总的来说，排练很成功。 要谢谢几个人：（按时间顺序）
从时间上讲八月快过去了，但是，对我来说，这个八月永远不会退色
August 13 To Desmond in NYThese several weeks are so busy. Every night got projects to discuss. But I feel satisfied. Anyway, that's life. I can't reject it. Thus, I accept it. Desmond said that life sucks. Well, I think everything sucks if you yourself feel suck first. You won't, right?
Desmond's flight is the day before yesterday. He is now in NY, fast asleep, I guess. Well, your new life starts. All the best, my dear friend.
I checked your profile of your space. It says that today is your birthday. So happy birthday. I really wanna know how you will spend your 19th birthday on the other side of the world. You will tell me right? I know you will contact me when everything's settled down. So I am waiting.
August 06 Life is like a battlefieldThis past one week, I felt that life was just like a battlefield. So busy!!!!
 Almost every night we had discussion.
 But isn't it terrific? I guess so and I believe so.
 I do achieve something and I have a sense of satisfaction after everything is done.
 Even now I was searching for the listening material online for our project. But it is worth all the effort.
 Everyone got his goal and everyone's life is just like a battlefield. You should fight for it or you will vanish.
 This week, I did not have enough sleep.
 Not only because of the discussion and project, but also bacause of something silly.  Fortunately, I got through it and I can say now, I am fresh and I am not in a hurry. I am worth waiting for! Today, i see a lot of messages left on my blog, including some anonymous ones, but I guess I must know them.Quite happy.
TO...I also promise that I will never go to extremes and I will never step into the opposte direction. I am now just who I am July 28 New start!These several days are quite challenging. A lot of things happened and I really feel that my new life in S'pore really starts. Last semester is just a period for us to adapt and now starting!
Got a lot of projects, discussion and presentation. But quite fun, quite busy, also, quite interesting.
Doing presentation is not so scared for us now cause I guess all of us already get used to it. Discussion with classmates is just on the right track now -- cooperate well and comunicate well. Projects may be the only new thing but also familiar thing to us --heard about it long ago. We already started and I believe I can make it, our class will make it! July 21 Homework blog According to our DLS teacher's require, we should paste our DLS homework to our blog, so I do.
May 03 Gone with the windHaven't checked the blog for a long time. At first, I wanna just desert it for now I have no interest. But after receiving an e-mail
 from my friend in China, I decided to write something not for anybody, just for myself or ... Q told me that Clark had not been to school. He had got the permission of a university in NY, a place he dreamt of, a place he always fought for.
 It is a good news.He used to be my deskmate for only a few weeks, but he did help me a lot in that time when I was applying for coming to Singapore. I really appreciated that time very much. Normally, it always seemed that he did not care about anything, but actually he knew his own purpose and always fought for it without any regretion and never step back. This is who he is.
 I never feel less strongly that he will achieve his goals, but I never know it is so soon, even before I can go back to see all of them.
Anyhow, there is nothing that can always stays the same. Everythign will grow along the time. Like the novel, Gone with the wind.
to record the path of my growth
April 07 My first 3 weeks' reflectionREFLECTION 06S07: XXX April 6, 2006 First week: CURIOUS This is my very first week in PJC. It is brand new to me, for I never have experienced to study as a JC student in Singapore. I am full of curiosity. When it came to my very first day in this JC, Tianjing, Junhua and I were sent to the class 06S07. I was a little surprised by the size of the class, because in China, we usually have more than 50 students in one class. The classmates in 06S07 are quite active and they are very cute. But I feel a little hard to join them because of the language problem---they often speak English whereas we prefer Chinese. Even though our purpose to come here is learning English, language is one serious way that prevents us from communicating with them. Another thing is that we can hardly find topics to talk with them. Usually, our conversations can only last within 5 minutes. This is quite frustrating.
Second week: PAINFUL This week I faced the first big challenge since I came to PJC---the PE class. I have run 6400 meters in 2 days, one day 2400m, and the other 4000m. What’s more, it was raining when I ran for the 4000m. This is the longest distance I have ever run. I thought I might die before crossing the finishing line, however, I made it! It was painful and difficult for me to achieve, but I wanted to do the same thing as the Singapore students did. It is proved now that I can do as well as them not only in study but also in physical training. There are other things that cheer me a lot. I finally have more chances to talk to the local students and communicate with them. Even though we still can not talk a lot as they do with each other, I still feel quite satisfied with myself. But usually I talk with them in Chinese, for it is more comfortable for both of us to understand each other. However, I know it is not enough, I should speak English, and otherwise I will achieve nothing in the end. Second week has passed and I am now looking forward to the third.
Third week: STILL PAINFUL BUT HAVING FUN ALREADY This week, everything seems so usual, everyday, every class. Most of my curiosity has faded away, and everything seems familiar now. This is just what I want. I want to adapt to the life as soon as possible, for I can only stay in PJC for 10 weeks. I don’t want to waste my time in adapting. There are more things to be done. I want to make more friends; I want to know more about the local students’ life; I want to let them know me more; I want to let them know my country more. All in all, I want to enjoy my time in this college. Even though now I still cannot fall in love with running, I do appreciate the PE class, for the teacher is quite nice and all the classmates are having fun. The training is really a tough task, but I think, after it, we not only build up our bodies, but also learn about perseverance. Even though I still hate sitting in the buses for more than one hour to get to hostel after class is over, I am quite glad to find that there is a classmate who takes the same bus as we do. That day we talked a lot so that I know more about Singapore and PJC. The third week is gone, I wonder what is waiting for me in the future. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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The above is what I handed in to the teacher who is in charge of us in PJC. Most of them are my true feelings towards the life here. It is painful sometimes as I mentioned, but I do think I have learned something, something valuable...... March 25 My first week in JCThis is my very first week in JC.
 This JC is called Pioneer. Tianjing,Junhua and I were in the same class. This week is a little bit uneasy for me, for I have to get up early in the morning at about 5:30 to catch to bus and I have to learn math,chemistry and economy all in English.
For the very first day,I don't think it makes any sense to me,because neither do I prepared for the lectures,nor the tutorials.That's really suffering. The Singaporean students are almost 2 years youger than me,but obviously,their English is much better than mine.(a little sad)Anyway,after looking at their math and chemistry notes,I think I'm on the right track now.
 The classes are not difficult though they are all in English.I understand the concept and the content. So,I grasp all. That's the point.But now,I face a serious situation.I feel that it is very hard to join in the class.
Language,of course, is one of my biggest difficulty.Though I can understand 70% of their words, I can hardly express myself as much as I do in Chinese.
 Then,culture background. Even though Singapore is a Chinese-based society,the culture here is quite different from what we have in China. I seldom find topics to communicate with the local students.
 (frustrating~~~~~).......... ...........
Anyway,this is the very first week.Perhaps it will turn better as time goes by.
 March 10 我留恋今天是这一阶段在NIE的最后一天，很留恋。
 我留恋每个和我合作过的partners:Maggie,Michelle，Grace
我留恋和我一起在泳池戏水的Ada,Gill
 我留恋用颤音叫我名字的Andre
我留恋我未完待续的胶泥和肉丝的故事
 我留恋叫Micheal"牛哥，穿着牛仔服，牛仔裤，还带着牛典”的片断
我留恋在羽毛球场把我打得落花流水的Mickey
 我留恋叫Carol为Kanruo时，她瞪我的眼神
我留恋总能逗我们发笑，有些小孩子气的Villence
 我留恋有漂亮耳钉而且喜欢搞笑的Phoebe
我留恋在我们录制自己的广告时，让我刮目相看的Elvis
我留恋我们的森林歌手C O V YA(Silvia)
 我留恋只会用苏州腔讲四川话“我不晓得”的Monitor
我留恋那个身材超好的Millet
我留恋......
不过还好，John,Isabelle,Becky are with me to the same JC
 不过还好，我们十周后还会再聚！！！ March 09 考试结束来到新加坡遇到的第一个较重要的考试终于结束了，很高兴，
很high。长长的抒了一口气，整个人都好像轻松了很多似的。题目其实不难，控制在自己的水平范围内，但既然是考试，总有把不准的题目。 不过，我对自己比较满意。前几天心情很郁闷，
 因为连续碰到了很多不爽的事情。周二在网上碰到妈妈，谈了很多，有些难过，有些伤感，谈到自己在偌大的图书馆对着电脑默默的抽泣，流泪。反复问自己来到这里是否是一个正确的选择，我是否后悔？还好，答案是，我不后悔，这是一个正确的选择。即使，我有过短暂的迷茫，短暂的徘徊，这始终会过去，因为，我总坚信:If the dream is big enough,the facts don't count.幸运的是，这次，萎靡不振期持续的出奇的短。
今天我已经是雨过天晴了。现在的我是fresh and clean.以我的现在的状态迎接JC，我很有信心。现在，我要大喊一声：I'm ready and I am coming. My life rate
March 07 midterm tests这周四就要考试了，现在感觉很奇怪，明明没有怎么复习，却找不到国内考试前那种如临大敌的感觉，而且，不会觉得很紧张。只不过偶尔会有些担心，自己是否是真的能够应付呢，还是太迟钝缺乏危机感呢？这里的生活过的其实不平静，可担忧好像是上个世纪的事情。虽然，这里没有人给你布置多的只能用几何级数来计算的作业，没有人在你耳边唠叨何时该做作业，何时该吃饭，何时该添衣；没有人在深夜你熟睡时为你盖被，没有人在你晚餐后为你端上削好了的水果......一切的一切，都是自己在安排，自己在主宰。
那天，看到一幅画，一个破壳的鸡蛋，小鸡躲在其中不敢出来，它是在徘徊，在犹豫，外面的世界充满了疑虑，未来是未知的，所以它迷茫，它惆怅。
我在想，自己是否曾经或者一直是那只小鸡。 March 05 JC昨天，收到了去哪个的通知，心情很复杂，班上有两个同学和在同一个，其余的都分散了，10周的时间，看似漫长，其实很短，突然之间，想到接下来的10周不会再和15的同学们一起做校车，一起玩杀人的游戏，感觉有些惆怅。
来到新加坡3个月了，人家说，当人离开家之后就会长大，就会独立。但我仍然很依奈我的家，心情不好的时候，有快乐要分享的时候，我都会想到我的家，我那个在锦官城外的家。偶尔看到从家乡带来的物品，心中总会一阵亲切，暖暖的。
日子还是一天天的过，时间悄悄溜走不留迹，我是否真的长大了呢？ March 03 诞生宣言今天我第一次开始编辑自己的space，以前看到班上的同学弄这个弄得热火朝天，于是自己也申请了一个，试试吧，据说是挺好玩的。
 既然当年美国独立有独立宣言我国建国毛主席也在天安门城楼上举国宣布那么~~我这个小小的space在经过鄙人的不懈努力下，终于诞生了，这怎么不值得“宣言”一下呢？算是对自己小小的奖励，小小的安慰吧。
现在，在折腾了一下午后，对于我这个菜鸟级别
 的人来讲，“好玩”是不可能的，一个字，"累"！！！！不过还是很高兴，自己的space总算初具雏形，内心不禁一阵窃喜。 但是，“革命尚未成功，同志还须努力”。在这里，我要感谢卖鸡和3M(Millet,Michelle,Mickey)的大力支持和帮助,使得我的space顺利诞生
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